From 10fa69ca5737014e5d8f25d0d03273352e2dd0c8 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001
From: Ignatius Bagus <ignatius.mbs@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, 30 Oct 2025 19:26:16 +0700
Subject: [PATCH] leave me alone

---
 .../apex/src/lib/components/Badge.svelte      |  1 -
 .../apex/src/lib/components/Piece.svelte      | 10 ++-
 .../apex/src/lib/dialog/SearchFilter.svelte   |  6 +-
 .../+article.md                               |  5 +-
 .../+article.md                               |  5 +-
 .../routes/posts/core-supplements/+article.md | 10 +--
 .../posts/fractured-memories/+article.md      |  3 +
 .../content/routes/posts/hate/+article.md     |  2 +-
 .../+article.md                               |  5 +-
 .../routes/posts/leave-me-alone/+article.md   | 61 +++++++++++++++++++
 .../posts/losing-the-questions/+article.md    |  5 +-
 .../routes/posts/opting-out/+article.md       |  7 ++-
 .../+article.md                               |  5 +-
 .../tdd-a-double-edged-sword/+article.md      |  5 +-
 14 files changed, 111 insertions(+), 19 deletions(-)
 create mode 100644 workspace/content/routes/posts/leave-me-alone/+article.md

diff --git a/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Badge.svelte b/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Badge.svelte
index 49f3f46a..9178a731 100644
--- a/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Badge.svelte
+++ b/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Badge.svelte
@@ -22,7 +22,6 @@
 		lighthouse: ['#304ffe', Contrast.LIGHT],
 		music: ['#1e88e5', Contrast.LIGHT],
 		nodejs: ['#90c53f', Contrast.DARK],
-		ppl2020: ['#feb229', Contrast.DARK],
 		productivity: ['#ff9900', Contrast.DARK],
 		python: ['#3879ab', '#ffda5d'],
 		reflection: ['#708090', Contrast.DARK],
diff --git a/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Piece.svelte b/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Piece.svelte
index 856e7498..2a00b3ed 100644
--- a/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Piece.svelte
+++ b/workspace/apex/src/lib/components/Piece.svelte
@@ -29,7 +29,7 @@
 			<aside>
 				{#if post.theme}
 					<span>{phrase(post.theme)}</span>
-					{#if post.theme !== 'essay' && post.theme !== 'reflection'}
+					{#if !post.series && post.theme !== 'essay' && post.theme !== 'reflection'}
 						<time datetime={post.date}>{date(post.date).format('DD MMMM YYYY')}</time>
 					{/if}
 				{:else if post.series?.title === 'Harvest'}
@@ -63,9 +63,13 @@
 	{/if}
 
 	{#if source}
-		<section data-info>
+		<section
+			data-info
+			style:text-align="center"
+			style:border-right="var(--rounding-base) solid var(--color-accent-primary)"
+		>
 			<!-- prettier-ignore -->
-			<p><a href="/help#feedback">send thoughts</a> via <a href="/about#elsewhere">email</a>. feedback or fixes welcome — <a href="https://github.com/ignatiusmb/mauss.dev/issues">issues</a> &middot; <a href="https://github.com/ignatiusmb/mauss.dev/blob/master/workspace/content/routes/{source}">edits</a></p>
+			<p><a href="/help#feedback">feedback</a> &middot; <a href="/about#elsewhere">email</a> &middot; <a href="https://github.com/ignatiusmb/mauss.dev/issues">issues</a> &middot; <a href="https://github.com/ignatiusmb/mauss.dev/blob/master/workspace/content/routes/{source}">edits</a></p>
 		</section>
 	{/if}
 </article>
diff --git a/workspace/apex/src/lib/dialog/SearchFilter.svelte b/workspace/apex/src/lib/dialog/SearchFilter.svelte
index 06566c58..418afa5a 100644
--- a/workspace/apex/src/lib/dialog/SearchFilter.svelte
+++ b/workspace/apex/src/lib/dialog/SearchFilter.svelte
@@ -99,10 +99,14 @@
 	.options {
 		display: grid;
 		gap: 0.5rem;
-		grid-template-columns: repeat(auto-fit, minmax(10rem, 1fr));
+		grid-template-columns: 1fr 1fr;
 		margin-top: 1rem;
 		background: inherit;
 
+		@media (min-width: 600px) {
+			grid-template-columns: repeat(auto-fit, minmax(10rem, 1fr));
+		}
+
 		section {
 			overflow-y: auto;
 			max-height: 24rem;
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/admin-dashboard-with-svelte-and-firebase/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/admin-dashboard-with-svelte-and-firebase/+article.md
index cc71d3a8..ac56a418 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/admin-dashboard-with-svelte-and-firebase/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/admin-dashboard-with-svelte-and-firebase/+article.md
@@ -2,8 +2,11 @@
 date: "2020-05-11T17:38:25+07:00"
 theme: archive
 title: Admin Dashboard with Svelte and Firebase
+series:
+  title: PPL 2020
+  chapter: 4
 description: Creating a full-fledged admin dashboard in under 3 hours
-tags: [ppl2020, svelte, firebase, sapper, javascript, audit, lighthouse]
+tags: [svelte, firebase, sapper, javascript, audit, lighthouse]
 ---
 
 ![Admin Dashboard Login](./admin-login.png)
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/complete-flutter-development-automation/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/complete-flutter-development-automation/+article.md
index 723857eb..db716f43 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/complete-flutter-development-automation/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/complete-flutter-development-automation/+article.md
@@ -2,8 +2,11 @@
 date: "2020-04-30T17:38:25+07:00"
 theme: archive
 title: Complete Flutter Development Automation
+series:
+  title: PPL 2020
+  chapter: 3
 description: Check out how to automate your Flutter development workflow
-tags: [ppl2020, flutter, devops, gitlab]
+tags: [flutter, devops, gitlab]
 ---
 
 ![Flutter Logo](https://storage.googleapis.com/cms-storage-bucket/lockup_flutter_horizontal_wht.67187dff9313e2831a8c.svg)
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/core-supplements/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/core-supplements/+article.md
index 6d43330b..c23d5bdf 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/core-supplements/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/core-supplements/+article.md
@@ -28,15 +28,15 @@ that said, my research has shown me a few things:
 
 from what i've read, this only happens at absurd, sustained doses (hundreds of thousands of IU daily for months), not the modest doses most people use. this context is what makes me comfortable with my own routine.
 
-**my dose**: i take **10,000 IU of `D3`** daily. i look for `D3` (not `D2`) and supplements without fillers like maltodextrin.
+**my dose**: i take **10,000 IU** of `D3` daily. i look for `D3` (not `D2`) and supplements without fillers like maltodextrin.
 
-## Vitamin `K2 (MK-7)`
+## Vitamin `K2` (`MK-7`)
 
 this one seems critical to take *with* vitamin `D`. from what i've read, `K2` is what directs calcium into bones and teeth, [improving bone quality and strength](https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7230802/), while also keeping it out of arteries and soft tissues.
 
 this is my primary safeguard against the main risk of vitamin `D` (vascular calcification). i specifically look for the `MK-7` form (not `MK-4`), at a ratio of at least 100 mcg for every 10,000 IU of `D3`.
 
-**my dose**: i take **200 mcg of vitamin `K2 (MK-7)`**, which comes included in my daily `D3` supplement. i also get it from food (high-quality grass-fed butter and beef, kimchi, eggs).
+**my dose**: i take **200 mcg** of vitamin `K2` (`MK-7`), which comes included in my daily `D3` supplement. i also get it from food (high-quality grass-fed butter and beef, kimchi, eggs).
 
 ## Magnesium Glycinate
 
@@ -44,11 +44,11 @@ my understanding is that this is another essential partner for vitamin `D` and a
 
 i chose the `glycinate` form specifically because i've read it's highly bioavailable. as a bonus, it seems to help me sleep better. i get some from food (leafy greens, chocolate, nuts, pumpkin seeds), but i supplement it to be sure.
 
-**my dose**: i take **500 mg of magnesium `glycinate`** daily, usually after dinner.
+**my dose**: i take **500 mg** of magnesium `glycinate` daily, usually after dinner.
 
 ## Zinc
 
-i learned that the vitamin `D` receptor (vdr) depends on zinc to function.
+i learned that the vitamin `D` receptor (VDR) depends on zinc to function.
 
 i'm careful with this one. i *think* i accidentally double-dosed once and felt incredibly sick, vomiting my lunch. it might have been a nocebo effect, but i'm avoiding pure zinc supplements for now and try to get it from food. if i do look for one, i'll make sure it's a low-dose blend with other trace minerals.
 
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/fractured-memories/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/fractured-memories/+article.md
index 0f98b5d4..3275a04d 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/fractured-memories/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/fractured-memories/+article.md
@@ -2,6 +2,9 @@
 date: 2025-10-10
 theme: reflection
 title: An Outsider Inside Myself
+series:
+  title: Solus
+  chapter: 1
 description: "the strange feeling of living my own life, yet remembering it as if i were watching someone else's."
 tags: [memory, introspection]
 ---
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/hate/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/hate/+article.md
index 86054aed..0c962e03 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/hate/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/hate/+article.md
@@ -8,7 +8,7 @@ tags: [emotion, ethics]
 
 hate is an *active* process, a conscious — or unconscious — expenditure of energy. it is the act of ruminating, of wishing harm, of allowing one's thoughts to be consumed by intense hostility. it is this *active* nature that makes it uniquely draining and dangerous. unlike hate, dislike is passive; it is a preference or a judgment.
 
-i do not use the word 'hate' lightly. i reserve it for a specific emotional process, distinct from mere dislike or aversion. however, this article is not about the "hate" for abstract concepts like injustice or cruelty, which can be a motivating force for good. it is about *interpersonal hate* — the active, sustained hostility directed from one person to another.
+i do not use the word 'hate' lightly, reserving it for a specific emotional process, distinct from mere dislike or aversion. however, this article is not about the "hate" for abstract concepts like injustice or cruelty, which can be a motivating force for good. it is about *interpersonal hate* — the active, sustained hostility directed from one person to another.
 
 > Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated. \
 > — Coretta Scott King
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/importance-of-proper-git-usage/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/importance-of-proper-git-usage/+article.md
index e6ffd621..bf9028b9 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/importance-of-proper-git-usage/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/importance-of-proper-git-usage/+article.md
@@ -2,8 +2,11 @@
 date: "2020-04-28T17:38:25+07:00"
 theme: archive
 title: Importance of Proper Git Usage
+series:
+  title: PPL 2020
+  chapter: 2
 description: A good commit can come a long way in the future and it can significantly reduce debugging time with descriptive body
-tags: [ppl2020, git, proper]
+tags: [git, proper]
 ---
 
 ![Commit messages steadily declining in quality](https://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/git_commit.png "[xkcd: Git Commit](https://xkcd.com/1296/)")
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/leave-me-alone/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/leave-me-alone/+article.md
new file mode 100644
index 00000000..ce8f82b1
--- /dev/null
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/leave-me-alone/+article.md
@@ -0,0 +1,61 @@
+---
+date: 2025-10-30
+theme: reflection
+title: Leave Me Alone
+series:
+  title: Solus
+  chapter: 3
+description: "on solitude, privacy, and the exhaustion of living in a world that refuses to let us be alone."
+tags: [privacy]
+---
+
+i can't tell whether solitude made me introverted, or introversion made me seek solitude. either way, i'm used to the silence — and i *prefer* it that way. this doesn't mean i avoid people; i simply don't feel the need to be surrounded by them all the time.
+
+when i am around others, i keep to myself most of the time. i enjoy observing, listening, and simply being present without the pressure to contribute to every conversation. i'm grateful that my close friends understand this — they know my silence doesn't equate to disinterest.
+
+i *cannot* foster superficial connections anymore. i'm out of patience for walking on eggshells or for people who talk shit behind your back — if you have something, say it to me straight up. i'm socially and emotionally exhausted, and i often *look* like i'm so done with everything.
+
+but this disposition clashes with a modern world that runs on constant, unsolicited demands for attention.
+
+## the fight for attention
+
+attention is the new currency, and everyone wants to collect it.
+
+in real life, that's manageable. it's the salesperson, the shop worker tailing me, and the noise of traffic. i can put on noise-cancelling earbuds, and most people understand a clear "no". i know these interruptions are often just part of someone's job, and i don't take them personally. i just want to stroll in peace.
+
+online, though, it feels like a siege. before i can even *read* a sentence, a site demands i subscribe, accept cookies, create an account, enable notifications, download their app, and sign over my firstborn child. i will willingly pay or subscribe if i find value, but they always shove these demands in my face *before* i can evaluate that value.
+
+### enshittification
+
+this digital siege has been coined as *[enshittification](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enshittification)*. consent is no longer part of the equation — it's either "yes" or "maybe later". i've become so tired of popups and modals that my instinct is to reject everything, even when something might interest me. it's a defense mechanism at this point.
+
+and don't get me started on mandatory features — the ones i can't disable, or "not interested" buttons that forget my choice after 30 days. excuse me, but what the fuck? how about *never show me that again*?
+
+it's just plain harassment at this point.
+
+so i've made it a rule: if a website or app interrupts me for something unrelated to what i'm doing, i leave or uninstall. i don't care how "good" the service is; disrespecting my time is a dealbreaker. if an app prompts me for a rating, i can assure them they *do not want* my rating.
+
+i know my experience is shielded. i only realized how bad the default experience has become when i used someone else's device. i never browse without an ad-blocker, i run privacy extensions, and my network filters junk through my home server at the DNS level. for some services, [i've opted out entirely](/posts/opting-out). for others, like YouTube, my blockers remove every trace of "shorts" from the page.
+
+## a mandate to perform
+
+this external battle becomes an internal one when the world insists **i** must participate. with every headline about "AI replacing our jobs", the new doctrine is to "build a personal brand" to stay relevant. we are told to "put yourself out there" or be left behind.
+
+i'd be lying if i said i didn't enjoy some recognition for my work. but when i weigh it against my privacy, i'd rather not. it's too easy to sell your soul for attention. i've felt the regret that comes from oversharing, a cost too high for my peace — the lingering discomfort after revealing too much of yourself to the void, knowing you'll never be able to take it back.
+
+this is why i fundamentally don't understand the obsession with being seen. why must everyone have an opinion on everything? why do people race to comment "first"? why do they broadcast every fleeting thought?
+
+if i were ever famous, i'd spend every day anxious about my privacy. imagine walking into a room and every eye turns toward you. i would *[hate](/posts/hate)* that kind of attention.
+
+## choosing obscurity
+
+some thrive under the spotlight — i respect that. but fame is not the only path to meaning. many live fulfilled lives without being known at all.
+
+don't conflate solitude for loneliness, or privacy for shyness. i'm not lonely when i'm alone, nor shy when i'm with others. i am alone because i *choose* to be. obscurity is a gift i give myself.
+
+*would you like to apply for [insert product]?* no, i'm not interested. \
+*do you want to sign up for [insert service]?* no, i'm good. \
+*do you accept our [terms, cookies, policy]?* no, i do not. \
+*would you like to [...]?* no. stop asking me.
+
+*do you...* no, whatever it is. just **leave me alone**.
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/losing-the-questions/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/losing-the-questions/+article.md
index 55266914..4f021b1b 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/losing-the-questions/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/losing-the-questions/+article.md
@@ -17,6 +17,9 @@ every time i move forward, i find myself paralyzed a few months later. colors lo
 
 an existential inertia. zooming out, in the grand scheme of things, humans don't seem to matter at all. *nothing* we do seems to matter. the earth has been here for billions of years and will remain long after humanity ceases to exist. the world doesn't revolve around any one person. everyone who lives will eventually die.
 
+> We come from an inconceivable nothingness. We stay a while in something which seems equally inconceivable, only to vanish again into the inconceivable nothingness. \
+> — Peter Wessel Zapffe
+
 so then — why am i alive? what is the meaning of life? why bother doing *anything* at all?
 
 this feeling bleeds into the present. when the only life i know is the one i'm living, it loses its spark. i grow so accustomed to my lifestyle that i forget there are other ways to live. the somber feeling of adaptation keeps me locked in place — unable to move forward or backward, simply enduring the passage of time.
@@ -33,7 +36,7 @@ a change in routine seems scary. being unable to predict the outcome makes me un
 
 this fear is a byproduct of overthinking. constantly traveling between the past and the future, never truly *living* in the moment. imagine going on a trip, thinking about making some memories and taking pictures — thinking about now as if it were the past in the future when looking back on the present... that's unbelievable time travel, and i used to do it all the time. i was so preoccupied with what could have been or what might be that i missed out on what *is*.
 
-what makes it worse is that we're more connected, yet more isolated, than ever before. i'm [Opting Out of the Algorithmic Social Life](/posts/opting-out), preferring in-person connection whenever possible. oxytocin bonds people together, and we lose it when we replace touch and eye contact with taps and videos on a screen.
+what makes it worse is that we're more connected, yet more isolated, than ever before. i'm [Opting Out of the Algorithm](/posts/opting-out), preferring in-person connection whenever possible. oxytocin bonds people together, and we lose it when we replace touch and eye contact with taps and videos on a screen.
 
 ## the release
 
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/opting-out/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/opting-out/+article.md
index 52ec7163..aea6c283 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/opting-out/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/opting-out/+article.md
@@ -1,7 +1,10 @@
 ---
 date: 2025-10-21
 theme: reflection
-title: Opting Out of the Algorithmic Social Life
+title: Opting Out of the Algorithm
+series:
+  title: Solus
+  chapter: 2
 description: on asociality and the irony of social networks that treat their users as commodities rather than individuals.
 tags: [introspection, culture]
 ---
@@ -79,4 +82,4 @@ i crave the [simplicity](/posts/simplicity) and authenticity of a time when conn
 
 moving away from social networks is my way of reclaiming time and attention for more meaningful pursuits. i grew up in the era of *pen pals* and still cherish that slower, more intentional form of communication. my preferred [contact method](/about#elsewhere) is now the plain and "boring" email, without the performative corporate speak or formatting — unless i'm writing to a corporation (?)
 
-in the end, this is one of my reasons for building a small corner of the internet — a [Digital Garden](/posts/digital-garden). <!-- as for everything else, well, [Leave Me Alone](/posts/leave-me-alone). -->
+in the end, this is one of my reasons for building a small corner of the internet — a [Digital Garden](/posts/digital-garden). as for everything else, well, [Leave Me Alone](/posts/leave-me-alone).
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/persona-from-a-hacker-perspective/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/persona-from-a-hacker-perspective/+article.md
index e60a6946..b6b1a26c 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/persona-from-a-hacker-perspective/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/persona-from-a-hacker-perspective/+article.md
@@ -2,8 +2,11 @@
 date: "2020-06-04T17:38:25+07:00"
 theme: archive
 title: Persona from A Hacker's Perspective
+series:
+  title: PPL 2020
+  chapter: 5
 description: Persona should be the first step to any development plan
-tags: [ppl2020, design]
+tags: [design]
 ---
 
 Creating, especially coding something starts from a certain problem. There's something we want to tackle and it has to have a clear objective for it to succeed. It has to take the necessary steps to stay in track and keep progressing in the right way.
diff --git a/workspace/content/routes/posts/tdd-a-double-edged-sword/+article.md b/workspace/content/routes/posts/tdd-a-double-edged-sword/+article.md
index 103a055f..0da33aef 100644
--- a/workspace/content/routes/posts/tdd-a-double-edged-sword/+article.md
+++ b/workspace/content/routes/posts/tdd-a-double-edged-sword/+article.md
@@ -2,8 +2,11 @@
 date: "2020-04-27T17:38:25+07:00"
 theme: archive
 title: "Test-Driven Development: A Double-Edged Sword"
+series:
+  title: PPL 2020
+  chapter: 1
 description: Is TDD really worth the time to invest for a maintainable and clean codebase
-tags: [ppl2020, tdd]
+tags: [tdd]
 ---
 
 ![TDD Global Life Cycle](https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/0b/TDD_Global_Lifecycle.png "by Xavier Pigeon via [Wikimedia Commons](https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:TDD_Global_Lifecycle.png)")